I am an incurably nostalgic person. I can look back on the vast majority of my life and think, "Wow. Those were some good times..." Every once in a while I read back to old entries on my old web page (still accesible at www.geocities.com/marciebens) just to see what I was thinking six years ago today...three years ago today. It is not just for the sake of looking back at chapters of my life that I have romanticized into being better than the present...it is mainly to see how faithful God has been. I like to read about the things that I was worrying about, fretting about, stressing over...and then realize that most of those things worked out just fine. And sometimes it is good to know that six years from now, or even six months from now, I will look back at most of the things that cause me worry today and realize that they were not worth loosing sleep over. God is good.
Tonight was our annual Young Life banquet. It was also my first official day on Young Life staff. Interesting. I am excited. That is no lie. I am truly very excited about what God is going to do in Hill City. But I am scared. I of course have all kinds of doubts and fears. I am nervous about "being in the ministry." What if I crash and burn? I have a lot of people watching. I have run over all the right answers concerning those fears a million times. I know they are not valid. But they do cross my mind now and again. I am learning a lot. I learning that the more I learn, the more I learn I need to learn. If I happen to cross your mind, feel free to pray for me. I'll take all of that stuff I can get :)
